Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Can't Sleep

I went to bed last night at 9pm because I was so tired and I had a headache. I was hoping sleep would make it go away but I woke up at 1am with a terrible headache that was soon turning to a migraine. I quickly got up and took my cocktail of advil and excedrin knowing that I could stop it quickly. I was so desperate that I took the excedrin even though I knew I would have trouble going back to sleep. Now that it is 4:45am I have completely given up sleep and decided to blog about my evening. I am supposed to get up in 15 minutes to go running anyway.

Yesterday was the beginning of the 4th week of having no kitchen and my house being in total disarray. It was a hard day to say the least. For family home evening we had to spend it in Home Depot picking out bathroom sinks and faucets and eating dinner at Burger King (which I hate). It was rather pathetic. Alan had to help his mom with something so I was left to put the kids to bed by myself. I was really tired and very GRUMPY. Poor Luke kind of took the brunt of all my frustration.

He has a little plastic cap gun that is out of caps but that he loves to shoot over and over again. Usually I just tell him to take it outside and all is well. Last night however, he and Bradley were both running around shooting their guns and yelling and I had had enough. I told them to stop now and don't shoot them again or I would take the guns, break them and thow them away. I don't think I said it very quietly either. After about two minutes Luke must have forgotten or just really couldn't help shooting it and he resumed the noise. I immediately took the gun broke it in half and threw it away just like I said I would. Here is the sad part. He didn't yell or scream or even start to cry. He just sat there and his little lip trembled a bit and he looked totally crestfallen. Mark cried for him though. I asked him what was wrong and he quickly let me know it was ME! We had prayer and I sent them off to brush their teeth. When I went upstairs to check on them I found Luke walking through the hall totally oblivious to me whimpering and muttering to himself, "she just broke it and threw it away. It is gone. In the garbage. Forever." Later I found him sitting on the counter in the bathroom trying to brush his teeth and muttering the same words. It totally broke my heart. If I hadn't broken it I would have gotten it out of the garbage and given it back tomorrow. I think he is definitely getting an orange plastic cap gun for Christmas.
Patience is a virtue that I am obviously still working on. Thank goodness kids forgive quickly and there is always a new day to look forward to and to try again.

10 comments:

Bobbi Jo said...

I am so sorry for the bad headache. YUCK! As for the gun I think we have all had something like that happen one time or another. And whatever you do don't pray for patience, you WILL be sorry. Then you are majorly tested. Hope you have a good day! Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Kara said...

"I am a good mom...I am a good mom"...Just keep repeating this to yourself... and be sure to get him a new gun!!

Jessica said...

Oh, Break my heart! I'm proud of you for living up to your word though. Yesterday I got upset with Tallon and he asked me if I wanted him to get a new Mommy. I am getting anxious for your house to be done, Yuck! I would have a migraine as well. Hang in there! It will be so-o worth it.

Jenifer said...

Dont' be too hard on yourself. We've all broken a toy and thrown it away. I'd say 4 weeks of remodel would drive anyone to the edge!

uniquelynat said...

just ask my mom to tell you about the doll and the screen door sometime. and steph to tell you about the pearl necklace. both very similar...and since it wasn't quite humorous!

i didn't do so great yesterday either. my poor kids. mostly addie. and you're right...good thing kids forgive sooo quickly!

Lori said...

Sounds familiar. Yes, mom's are entitled to lose their patience every once in a while, or we wouldn't be normal. I'm sure he'll forget all about it one day. And look on the bright side, you found that couch in the middle of the night, right? Your headache was good for something. (By the way, how is the couch? Did you get it?)

MJ/Mom/GrammaJ said...

Cutest thing I have ever heard! Oh, my poor Lukey. You know I would have taken him off your hands for you! And gone shopping for the new gun!

Jody & Angela said...

So sorry! The only thing that gives me comfort in those times is knowing that I can get up and try harder the next day, and that kids are so amazingly loving and Christ like in their ability to forgive. You are a fabulous mom, and your kids love you to pieces. It will all be okay!

Thuh Daynuh's said...

I just pitched an empty bottle across the kitchen this morning... and we're not even remodeling! Ah, motherhood, it brings out the best in us, doesn't it? :)

Melody said...

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